she said
men are bastards
and we laughed

at the bar
I order triples
she gets what I need her to have
and not what she asked

later she confesses,
she pulled the same trick

It's the thought of not being able to have her
which makes me so determined
it is also her hand
on my shoulder,
and the damage it would do,
so I let her know
exactly who she's dealing with.

Later, I walk her home

I walk her home to him.