what more can I achieve
than lying here
on top of her?
what better thing can be done
then letting her suck my thumb
lying here beneath her?
what more can I believe
having tested other dreams
with fire and prayer
and found all so badly wanting?

I am the first man
and the last man,
The alpha
and the cretin.

I reached this age
too long ago
and have become reconciled to my own
inevitable death

I no longer find destruction so upsetting.

What ever happens,
I will not fear nor care so much,
for whatever happens next.