It has been so long
since I was not killing myself.
I still believe
that when I am not busy with that business,
I am formidable.

It is hard to stop.

I am trying to put aside my heartbreak.
I am too old.
Have felt too much.
If only I could put aside this heartbreak.

I warn you,
I have not given up.
I still intend
to be formidable.