have i come to a place so devoid of light
so far removed from life
that I may never find my own way back?

i see the world
i hear it and i breathe it
yet
it does not penetrate

have i gone so far down
so far in
that there will never be a coming back?

on my knees
with the sting of drink for tears
i wait for word
some messenger of heaven
but no word comes

silence

this is the terror.